Thoughts Are Just, Thoughts.
A lot of people have these things called “intrusive thoughts”. They’re obsessional thoughts, that you can’t get out of your mind. And, they’re usually pretty disturbing.
After I had each of my kids, I had a fear I was going to fall while holding them, resulting in them getting really hurt. Or, my babies would be sound asleep, and I’d have to check on them multiple times, bc I had this persistent thought that “what if something was wrong and I didn’t check?”
Other times, intrusive thoughts can be as nasty as a fear of hurting others. As a survivor myself, one of my biggest fears is hurting a child. Whether, intentionally or not.
My right mind says, “you would never.” But, it doesn’t stop my mind from torturing me.
I’m not ok with these thoughts, and I’m certainly not looking to normalize the thoughts, themselves. However, I think it’s important to remember, real predators/“bad people” don’t worry about hurting people and children. They take pleasure in it.
Your thoughts are not actions. You can have some horrible and bizarre thoughts, but that has nothing to do with you, as a person.
Just like you can beat someone up while thinking happy thoughts, and that doesn’t make you a “good person”. You can also think some pretty disturbing things, and as long as you don’t act on them, it doesn’t change who you are, or your worth, as a person, AT ALL.
Have you ever experienced intrusive thoughts? How do they show up for you?
You are not your thoughts!