My Fight Against Postpartum Depression/Anxiety
How Postpartum Depression/Anxiety Has Affected Me
My postpartum depression scared me,
this past year
It told me lies,
like I’d never be able to fully bond with my kids
That, I’d never be enough,
or that they would be better off without me
It told me all the ways my kids were missing out,
by having me as their mom
It showed me everything I wasn’t,
and nothing that I was
I had waited my whole life,
to be lucky enough to be a mom
And, now that I had everything I ever dreamed of,
my mind wouldn’t let me enjoy it
Instead, it tormented me,
and laughed while I cried
This past year,
I was afraid, overwhelmed, and feeling so very alone
But, between my kids, my framily (friends who’ve become family, & family who are also friends), therapy, medication, and a lot of self compassion (at least, trying…)…
I beat it.
It certainly didn’t feel like success,
until moments like right now
I realize,
I win this fight, day after day, time after time
No matter how defeated you may feel,
If you’re alive, you’re winning, too!
Be gentle with yourself,
You’re doing great!
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